SELF HARM URGE - BEGINNING ANALYSIS

Beginning Analysis of Urge to Self Harm

 

Hello, I’m Lollie, a self-harm addict.

From my perspective, the urge to self-harm is linked or co-exists with the death urge (as opposed to the life urge). Stopping or staying abstinent from the involuntary behavior of self-harming or injury is not simple or easy!

The baffeling crux of the problem is a multilayered manifestation. It presents above and beneath the surface or the conscious and subconscious mind. One sees the surface of a sea glacier that conceals a massive formation under water. The more conscious the urge is, the easier to overcome obstacles in the way of cessation from the undesirable behavior.

Understandably, the primary focus should be to stop the nuisance behavior(s) and then proceed with the why of it all. Taking or doing a thorough complete Step One including the unmanageable section. This is an imperatively good beginning leading to abstinence and will strengthen the urge to stop as well as enhance one’s life urge. 

Step One:  "We admitted we were powerless over physical self-harm—that our lives had become unmanageable."

~Adapted from AA

 

 

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TRIGGERS APROPOS to SELF HARM

Hello, I’m Lollie, a self-harm addict.

I have a pattern between increased stress which triggers my urge to self-harm. Sometimes triggers operate silently or subconsciously. I do ok when I’m occupied or remain calm or serene. Once something upsets me I’m off and running into self-harm episode which leads to injury if behavior goes unchecked. I have a whole gamut of things that lead up to what I call a self-harm attack which often lasts for hours or until it resets upon waking the following day.

I seem a little numbed out as to the direct effect of practicing self-harm. I recall that even causing bleeding, the main pain sets in afterward along with depression and increased self-neglect. Sometimes I harm self by other than physical means too. Accident prone is another way to say I self-harm, although it mostly operates on a subconscious level.

These are merely observations on my part and need not trigger anyone. I think it is helpful to become self-aware.

And more shall be revealed…

ABSTINENCE IS THE ONLY WAY TO FLY!

 

Living in freedom from self harm sounds like an exhilarating dream!

 

Hello, my name is Lollie and I am a self harm/injury addict. Little did I realize in childhood, that starting physical self harm would become a lifelong habit. I endeavor to gain abstinence over this incredibly obstinate compulsion to self harm/injure. It takes many forms, but I think gaining abstinence over physical self harm is a good start. No matter the method, we have common ground. Reaching out to share your story with others has proven to be beneficial. Application of the 12 Step and 12 Tradition program also helps.

 

I would guess there's millions of people who have a similar problem but we seem scattered about, on and off line. Some are too ashamed to talk about it. Others, have just given up. Many comments I've seen or read online seem far out to me, but indicate the violent nature of this nightmarish disorder that can end in suicide.